It's a
question I often ask myself, will my daughter be my only child?
At birth we
were bonded, and though I was terrified, what developed can only be described
as amazing. She is my whole world, the
wind beneath my wings, my forever love, and every other sappy 80's song you can
come up with.
And how
could she not be? When she was a baby she'd fall asleep in my arms while I sang
the theme to Golden Girls. We’d play the
silly face game, evoking uncontrollable fits of laughter, and when it was time
for her first shots we both cried "like babies". She is indeed the
most amazing little person I have ever met
.
So when
people ask me "Do you want to have more?" I always answer with a profound yes, but
there was a time when I really don't know.
It's not because I don't love my daughter, it's the opposite; I love her
so much would I feel the same about her siblings? Do I have enough love in my
heart for two?
My mother
never made my sister and I feel as if she loved one of us more than the other,
no matter how hard we proclaimed favoritism (She has more fries than I do!) Growing
up with a sibling is something I've always wanted my children to experience,
for when I’m gone from this world they’ll have each other.
My
hesitation lied in my complete adoration of my baby girl and the fact that
we've grown together. Our late night non-slumber parties, our early morning
dance parties, and milestones like first steps, first teeth, and first
words. Will those "firsts"
feel the same the second time around?
And then I
realized what I learned from my mom, that a mother’s heart is big enough for
all of her children. This one came out awesome, so why not try again?
Besides by
then I'll have this mom thing down right? :)